the time of my life

sad isn't it?
the only reason of why i'm here today is for a book review
-___-
but, oh well
it is not exactly a review but just how i felt after reading this one

this morning i posted this on my instagram and fb
it is taken from the last paragraph of Cecelia Ahern's, The Time of my Life

life... is just and ordinary plain little word
but of course, it has much more deeper meaning
much more different views from any one of us

how's life affected me so far?
i will hit 30 soon
being married at 25, and blessed with a good understanding husband and 2 beautiful child,
how come i'm not proud of what my life has brought me so far
i'm proud, very...

i have a degree
i have a job (not really happy with the salary, but still i love the job! Alhamdulillah...)
i rant on the job frequently, but who doesn't?
i am surrounded with a good bunch of friends and respected colleagues
and of course, a family who always had my back, who always be there for me

but do i want more with my life?
heck, sure i do
just like everyone else, like every other human beings on this planet
i want to travel more
i want to read books more
i want a 5 figures on my paycheck
i want to give more for my childs
i want a new sets of pretty clothes
conventionally, we just want more of everything in our life
but with only a husband i hope... haha

at times there will be hiccups, boundaries, and or we're facing a big hole with no bridge for us to cross over
at times there will be happiness, laughter, and just smiles on our faces

but, all i want is to be forever grateful and contented with my life
bravely endure with every hardships
and embrace with every comforts and blessings from the One