sick of it...

speechless.shocked.irritated.
intolerable.sad.annoyed.
clueless.mad.madness.
anger.what the hell?
crying.teary.hesitant.
being misunderstood.confused.
agony.dilemma.fear.
want to go home.
i JUST don't understand.
burdened.ungrateful.
excuse.lame.pathetic.
stupid.blurry.disturbance.
miserable.pressured.stressed.

i know i shouldn't write these words.
a day before Ramadhan.
but this is how i feel right now.
and i think i couldn't take it anymore.
it wasn't my mistake on the first place.
it was never mine.
but why am i still being dragged into this madness?

God, please give me strength.