Forgiveness

sorry blog, it's been awhile since i last wrote you
yeah, shame on me!

so, just cut to the chase
how's life?
nothing much...pretty normal...the usual...
work..being a mom...work again...then being a mom again
typical cycle and at times i'm bored to the max
hoho

works finally start to slow down this month
too slow that i don't even know what's the purpose i come to the office today
so, i reached out for Pinterest
thank God, there is Pinterest!
Pinterest is awesome! hahaha
i pin fashions, quotes, funny quotes, words on motherhood, islam and etc
and i found this today
i love it so much it brought tears to the eyes

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i guess at this point of age you starts to learn more about your belief systems, your roots
and you tend to strengthen your pillars of life
you think about the afterlife more often than the present

i still remember when i read a hadith or ayat from Al-Quran, lets say 10 or 15 years back, it was just a mere hadith or ayat to me
but now, not only do i starts to understand, but i'm also trying to capture the essence, or the meaning of every words and lines
and i hope i am not too late

i know that i'm far for being a perfect muslim
but knowing that He always forgive, how could you not try to be better for Him

a proper birthday wish

as if it was not proper enough before, haha
you see, it was my daughter's birthday last month
and it was also my son's earlier this month
wait, are we talking a successful family planning here or what?

unfortunately, i did not write any proper post for both of them
it's funny, cause i feel guilty
like i've wrote in my previous post before, it has been a busy couple of months for me
RU audit sucks! MyMOHES audit sucks! Overtime sucks!
but, it's the job, deal with it!

so yes, i found this cute quote, and a design background
and tried to do a little bit of editing with picmonkey
and there, i manage to come out with this

dear najah,

you've turned 4

you've suddenly become taller, wiser and independent

you want to do everything on your own

from brushing your teeth, to shower by yourself, wear your cloths and comb your hair

you tie your own shoes, you do your bed and put away your toys

you love it when i read to you stories

you love it when i hold you to sleep

at times, you were cranky

cranky enough to make this mom burst out her anger

but still you come back to that mom

and hug her

also at times, i can see your role as a big sister

protective towards your brother and sister

i love you so much

i don't think you will never have the idea

dear nadeem,

time do flies fast

you are 2 years old

it was a crazy two years ride for all of us, and it is still now

i wish you will completely heal from it soon

it is my dua every single day, every single prayer

you are a strong boy, with two big eyes, and a cute little nose

you talk a lot, you eat a lot

and you still couldn't let go of my boobs

you miss it terribly everyday when i went for work, and even when i'm home

you are so attached with your tok abah, and love both your sister so much

but, in a boys way--play rough!

you love books and knows all the animals

you can even tell a different between a goat and a sheep

you can pronounce the word 'centipede' and sings ABC and 123

you don't how proud i am

how good i feel

i love you 

with all my heart

busy

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wow...those words up there, were sardonic to me
in my thoughts, busy and happy should not be sitting side by side
like, how can you be happy when you are in such a busy state?

but in-depth, if you really love what you do, whether it's your job or your hobbies
you'll find the excitement in it
definitely!

so, yeah
i've been busy the whole month for the upcoming Research University audit in february
it sucks! since it's going to be an annual thing-y
hence, the lack of updates--
pardon me

i'm trying my best to stay focus on the job
and put all my heart in it (LOVE your job, geddit?)
at the same time, praying to GOD to make it easy on me
and Alhamdulillah, everything is almost done and complete
of course there are few hiccups here and there, but everything is still under control
pheww

5th January 2014

it is the 2nd year najah medina at Genius Qayyum
it is also the first day of me and husband working on sunday
well, we get through the day pretty smoothly
but there's also a minute or two where we subconsciously thought that it was monday
haha--

ok, enough about us
so, after over a month of school break, she's all set for her 2nd year at GQ
totally excited, she slept super early that night (before 8pm!, huh)
and easily woke up with a simple line coming from my mouth

"Najah, wake up! School jom!"

we had our regular everyday breakfast at Aminah's
as usual, her orders will be 3 half-boiled eggs to be shared with her dad
then, off we send her to GQ
it's her 2nd year, so we didn't take any annual leave or hours
and just like our normal routine, she salams us and we exchange kisses, and there she goes
can't hardly wait to meet her friends and teachers!

anyway, people always mistook her as a 5 or a 6 years old toddler because of her height
and also because she talks a lot!
when actually, she's only going to turn 4 in two weeks time

mama and daddy are definitely going to plan something for your 4th birthday
nothing exclusive, maybe just a simple, yet to be remembered small family occasion

2014, hail to the new year

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it's a spanking brand new year
and i'm hugging it tight with all my heart
resolutions?
i have quite a number, so just to name a few--

to get my own driving licence
to further my studies
to learn new recipes
to read the Quran at least a page a day
to never miss any of the five prayers
to stay healthy
and to spend the money more wisely

2014, please be awesome
InsyaAllah

the last friday of 2013

geez...
i write again today
two post in a week?
oh wow--

to commemorate the last friday of 2013, i told myself that i should write a bit today
as you all know, today is not just the last friday of the year, but it is also the last friday of working days for us who lives in johor
to us government people mostly--

a few friends from other states did asked, how do i feel working on sunday?
all i can say is that, i've never been there, so i don't know
i don't know what to feel
i don't know what to expect
i don't know if it such a good idea, or bad, at all
but all i know is

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hehe..but you know what
upon writing this, i am actually looking forward for the new working hours
let's bring it!

on that 5ive!

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december has always been that month of love to us
of course to me and the husband
and this december means so much more to us since we have hit yet another milestone in our relationship
Alhamdulillah...

the FIVE years of togetherness
the FIVE years of belong-ness (if there's even such a word ahha--)
the FIVE years of throwing tantrums at each other
the FIVE years of being one and another backbone
is one of a kind lifelong lesson
and yes we are still learning, we are still adapting, and we are still cherished each other company

that anniversary outing at genting was such a blast
even though it was quite tiresome with THOSE two around!
and with no cakes, no fancy gifts, no beautiful outfits
our time was well spent with laughter and giggles

so, here's to my sayang, noranizam

happy 5th anniversary--
marrying you is by far my best decision ever in my life
i love you
i love you
i love you

a not so typical monday rant!

came to work this morning with no-task at all in hand
tsk tsk...
i actually finished all my outstanding jobs last week in order to make way for a new tasks
whatever it will be, because it's a new month right?

up until 10am, i was clicking my mouse and fingers from Facebook pages to instagrams
i've been blog hopping, one blog after another
i've been listening and watching videos at youtube, from Ellen deGeneres shows to The Heirs OST
i was sitting at my place without fidgeting so that the boss won't notice what i've been doing
and then... i couldn't take it any longer
how am i suppose to spend my entire day at my cubicle without doing anything?
this is totally sucks!
if  the previous me, a day with no job is like my utmost little heaven,
the now me, would be feeling guilty all over--
hihi..no need to explain this kind of stuffs right here

then off i went and meet the boss, just to beg for some tasks
you know what he gave me?
the pending tasks that we actually divided between all the staffs in the division since early november,
and the dateline was way overdue already!

well, it doesn't irritates me at all when he asked me to complete the task
what annoys me the most is the fact that i actually already helped a colleague to finish that exact same task last week because he was down with chicken pox!
i'm talking about 80-90 articles or publications that i need to google online one by one just to get all the details e.g. authors name, journal, volume, issue, ISSN, fulltext and whatnot
so 80-90 articles, you times 3?
it's freaking almost 300 articles!

so yeah, thanks to God i'm not pregnant, or sick
cause i'm sure if i were to be in that conditions, the possibilities of me to throw up is very high
definitely--
 

FFL (friends for life?)

well, thanks a bunch guys
i was not in the frame...pfffttt
but then again, fortunately i was not in it cause then people are going to start comparing our sizes
bib and su will always be the XS, fiza (M?), and i'll be the XL (ok, super long sigh!)

actually, husband's going to pick me up late, hence this post came out of the blue
as you can see, i don't usually talks about friendship here
so, just let me do the introduction of who are these beautiful people

from left, she's bib
we're off the same age
and she's totally in love with disney princesses and girly stuffs
you guys should see her previous workplace
it was so full with  those tiny miny little princess stickers all over her desk
yeah, i know, what kind of 30 years old who still loves disney princess?
haha
but i'm warning you, you probably don't want to mess with her
she can be a hard-cold sometimes
at the moment, she's still single, but not for long
her big day is just around the corner...like another 2 weeks away
gulp! as a good friend, my advice to you please please enjoy that single-hood moment
live it to the fullest cause after this everything is going to be shared
which is a good thing, right?
yikes--

the middle one, that's fiza
same age with two kids
she's like the sporty one among us four
lawn ball, netball, and petanque are all her specialties
but she's also the most tired people in the world!
how come?
because she needs to wake up really early
everyday, she will made delicious sandwiches and bring it to the office
and not for free!
duh--
and she's also good at making cupcakes ^^

last but not least, there is suhana
a year younger than us three
she called fiza 'kakak', but me and bib just by our name
why aahh? so rude! hahaha
this girl really loves online shopping (still kan?) and always seek the advice from this master of online shopping herself
ok, that would be me *facepalm*
last time i checked, she's into vintage but then after she's married, she's more into muslimah fashion? ke?
erkk NOT!

oh by the way, suhana and fiza are family related since their husband are cousins
you know what freaks me out? both husbands actually sounds the same... i mean their voices
the first time i talk to ben (fiza's spouse) i thought i was speaking with salih (suhana's husband)
giler ah--

well, here goes to you ladies
may we still be that shoulders to cry on in 30 years to come, if God's willing
may we share our voices that constantly remind each other of do's and dont's

and may we enjoy every laughter together often 

and oh yeah, and may our 'little businesses' that we are doing right now blossoms and expands

'here's to the nights that turned into mornings with the friends that turned into family'

being 30

so the day has arrived and passed
it was last friday
the day of me, being 30

people said 'age is just a number'
people also said 'growing old is mandatory, while growing up is optional'
but i don't want to be a grown woman but with a behavior of a child
maybe, all i want is this...at the moment!

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 happy 30th birthday to me!

between Baldi, Barbie and Benang

ok, what's up with all these Bs?
haha--

well, how many times have you heard people mention that 'the kids always say the darndest things!'?
errr...they will not always say the darndest thing, mind you,
but most of the time, there will be some funny new words coming out from their tiny mouth
be a parent, you are privilege to get to across that situation once in awhile
this is what happens to me too, with najah actually
and of course, we have a good laugh every time she spilled out the words
as for nadeem, he is gradually improving on his daily simple vocab in order to catch up with his big sister
so, mama is still waiting for that moment!

here goes--

B for Baldi

najah has some difficulty pronouncing the word 'baldi'
guess what always coming out from her?

Blaaa-di!

i think if other people heard her saying that, they might think that she's swearing some bad word
bloody? blaa-di?
cringe--

B for Barbie

here's another B
hrmmm, on this one,  i don't get it why she has a tough time to say the word Barbie because she always mention it as

Braaa-bie!

why? why? is it that you want to wear a bra so soon girl? duh--
tsk...tsk....

B for Menang

yep, i wrote that right
B for menang

practically, her 'menang' is always 'benang'
like

'yeay, najah benang, daddy kalah!'
'mama, tadi najah benang hadiah kat school!'

trust me, you guys have no idea how many times have we corrected her 'benang' to 'menang'
cry me a river--

so, that's all for now
as i'm writing this, i've got an idea that maybe i should write a column post like 'Nonsensical Words Najah Says' or 'Najah & Nadeem Vocabs of the Day' or whatnot
until then, i'm hoping that she won't learn these so-called 'words' before she's totally grown up

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상속자들 - The Heirs

with lee minho's new project coming out soon (this coming wednesday to be exact!),
my october has become more and more anticipating
shit, enough with this all october thing-y please will you?
hahaha sorry

but hey, i really like his acting
well, apart from his tall figure and the face!
and he does proves himself that he can be much better actor over the years
if you don't believe me, get yourself to watch Boys over Flowers first, which by the way is my least favourite drama of him, and after that go and watch City Hunter or Faith
THEN, you'll know--

in The Heirs he will be pairing with Park Shin Hye, of which the chemistry i really don't get to see between them...yet
yeah, i'm pretty much in doubt state

but let's just hope for the best!^^

the story revolves around a very super rich kids (seriously, they are many chaebols in this drama) who are going to inherit their super enormous family business
and of course, there is our poor girl (damsel in distress?) who get caught up between these rich people
i know, cliche right?
heck, isn't that's the kind of element that we are looking for by watching korean dramas?
too many nonsensical drama...hihi

anyway, below is the 14 minutes and 20 seconds long trailer of the drama
and you know what, i watched it without subtitles
giler--
but luckily, i've taken a basic korean language before, so i think i understand half of their conversation
gah, dream on!
not even close to half...not even close

hey october!

you are like my most anticipated month of the year
not just for any particular year
but yeah, it has always been like that every year
haha

but of course this time it's different
different with a special cause
different with a much more meaningful expectation
different because of these numbers
3 and 0

i am never a dreamer kind of girl
dream big is always not my kind of thing
or, how should i put it?
i'm more like a 'go-with-the-flow' type
whatever happens, happen
and i don't regret even if the choice i make, made a wrong turn

but somehow, when you reach at this point of age
you do want to do something
and you want to do something big
not big enough for some people, but it is for me though
wink~

well, there are two BIG things that have been going through my mind lately
and i would like to put a two years frame in order to achieve the 'things'
insya-Allah, God's willing

but for now, these bunch of people are my soul, my source of happiness
my october!

 

and my happiness level will surely doubled-up if i can have one these things on errr...

'What Jaja Wants On Her 30th Birthday' list

and one only can hope that 'that someone' can read this, hehe~

the time of my life

sad isn't it?
the only reason of why i'm here today is for a book review
-___-
but, oh well
it is not exactly a review but just how i felt after reading this one

this morning i posted this on my instagram and fb
it is taken from the last paragraph of Cecelia Ahern's, The Time of my Life

life... is just and ordinary plain little word
but of course, it has much more deeper meaning
much more different views from any one of us

how's life affected me so far?
i will hit 30 soon
being married at 25, and blessed with a good understanding husband and 2 beautiful child,
how come i'm not proud of what my life has brought me so far
i'm proud, very...

i have a degree
i have a job (not really happy with the salary, but still i love the job! Alhamdulillah...)
i rant on the job frequently, but who doesn't?
i am surrounded with a good bunch of friends and respected colleagues
and of course, a family who always had my back, who always be there for me

but do i want more with my life?
heck, sure i do
just like everyone else, like every other human beings on this planet
i want to travel more
i want to read books more
i want a 5 figures on my paycheck
i want to give more for my childs
i want a new sets of pretty clothes
conventionally, we just want more of everything in our life
but with only a husband i hope... haha

at times there will be hiccups, boundaries, and or we're facing a big hole with no bridge for us to cross over
at times there will be happiness, laughter, and just smiles on our faces

but, all i want is to be forever grateful and contented with my life
bravely endure with every hardships
and embrace with every comforts and blessings from the One

masih ada...

Pinterest

the words says it all~

to survive this blog, i need to have stories

well, i have stories to tell

a lot...

BUT

there's always a but

i blame it on the work pile

i blame it on the 'raya-mode'

i blame it on the time

i blame it on myself, wholly

but hey, i'm still here once in a while right?

and i might just keep it that way

peace-

raya mode already!

apologize to myself because i was unable to update this blog as often
haha~

today will be my last day for work before raya
can't wait for 4.30pm!
since last week most of my job have been settled
so basically i'm pretty much doing nothing at work this week
it is hard coming to the office everyday having nothing to do, you see
i even begged my boss to give me at least something to do
i know she's busy with something, but i don't know what's up with her?
she just doesn't want to share kut!
but then again, she keeps complaining on and on that she has a lot to do
heishhhh
well, she won't be my boss for long now
and i am so happy with that!
giler jahat--

so, enough with the work rants
raya preps?
so far, we're done shopping for the kids
hubby manage to paint the kitchen wall last couple of days
the house still need a lots of clean up
like super lots!
'kuih raya-in-the-making' will only starts tomorrow
yeah, we didn't even buy a single kuih raya this year
my mom wants it to be homemade plak this time
12 bekas kuih, so kene 12 jenis kuih raya ke?
mati--
my baju raya (errr byk pasang jugak) still pending at my 2 tailors
hopefully they'll be able to finish it on time
please, please i don't even want to think on the worst case scenario
yet!
duit raya pun baru nak tukar harini
our budget is tight, so do expect some penurunan yer anak-anak
hahaha
some last minute shopping also might happen somewhere next week before we are going back to batu pahat

for the first 2 days of syawal, i'll be at my in-laws before heading to cherating where my grandma resides
wow, having writing this i actually can't wait for raya!

oh yes, one more thing this raya is very special for me
you know why?
nadeem imran has showing really some positive recovery from his eczema after consume the elken product - kington isotonic and ig6
this week alone i get to sleep pretty much all through the night instead of waking up every hour
he used to scratch and bleed, that's how bad his condition was
and Alhamdulillah, i couldn't ask for more from Allah of what He has bestowed upon us
  

Henry - Trap

heard this song almost 100 times already
ok, i lied
but, seriously this song is REALLY good!
trust me, you won't regret

Aimy Keisya

hi all
would like to introduce our new addition to the family
the beatiful baby keisya

 

she came into our family 28 days ago as my mom's adopted child

and guess what?

i am the ibu susuan!

never have i thought that i will be a someone's ibu susuan

it does feel weird initially, but it kind of washed away when you see her cute, and pretty little face

but then again, as much as i want to cuddle, or kiss or breastfeed her

there come nadeem imran!

he's pretty much jealous, you see

but in such a cute way haha

i was actually the one that gives out the name aimy keisya

aimy means blessing, and keisya is to live well

hopefully, Allah will bless her all the time and she will lead a good life

with us

so now, our problem is how we should address ourselves to her

her adopted mom is my mom

and her ibu susuan is me

what do you want to call me baby?

mama? kakak?

choose...

Ramadan Kareem

wow
it's already the 3rd day ramadhan
how's yours so far?
mine?
apart from my sleepless night (yep, thanks to nadeem imran!) everything is in good condition
mom is staying over at my place since her husband is away to perform his umrah
so yeah, basically i got a master chef in my house!
it does feels great since i don't have to worry of what to cook and whatevs

source: google

so, for this beatiful month, i would like to wish Ramadan Kareem to all of you. 

May Allah swt accept all of our fasts, 

let us walk away from this month with all our sins forgiven, 

strengthen our relationship with the Quran 

and bring us closer to our family and friend!

too(two) good news

i've been holding up this two great news since last week
well, just because i don't want to jinx it
since everything's good, and everything's confirm
now i can spill the beans

news number one?
Alhamdulillah...i have been chosen to receive the award for 'UTM Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang tahun 2012'

i received an email from the chief librarian's secretary last week saying that she would like to have a short meeting with us on early monday morning
7.50 am to be exact!
of course at first i thought it was just a normal gathering between the chief librarian and her staff
and then i scrolled down to check on other recipients
gulp!!! ok, why is there only my name on the mailing list?
hahaha
immediately, i ym'ed my good friend and she was like congratulating me with all the APC's stuff
i was like, no way! this is only my fourth year here kut
in denial, doh!
but after the short meeting on monday morning, it all has been clarified
Alhamdulillah, again...

the ceremony is next week, with 'batik' theme
so boring the theme haha
i've been eyeing this one particular midnight blue dress from Love to Dress, that i'd love to wear on that day
it's a plain dress, so i think i can find some batik printed tudung or shawls to go with the theme
paisley is some kind of batik print right?

now, move on to the second news...(drumroll please)
yep, i've secured two tickets to watch Lee Minho concert this coming saturday!
SUPER EXCITED okeh
i'm tagging najah along with me
i know she will always be my utmost trustworthy companion
grabbed the tickets by a deal from Groupon
they gave 30% discount from the actual price
yeay...



if i live in KL, i'd definitely wait for his arrival this evening at KLIA
but, one can only hope...huhu

so najah, let's brush up our korean and buy a new outfit!